This is who i am

My god. I haven't posted on months.. or something. Please, if i do this again, track me down and slap me. Yes?

In my first blog i said i'd post drawings i've done up, that happened twice out of like twenty blogs. so yeah.. Pictre time!!!

Wednesday, strike day for teachers. But apparently college is different and only some people are doing it. So i have to go in, but if any of my teachers are striking i'm going to Mcdonalds. I don't care if it's exzpensive. I miss it.

I hope you're all ok and thanks for reading <3 xxx

Everything is just so quiet x

-What kind of music do you enjoy listening to?
Anything, apart from dubstep and full on screamo. To me that's just noise.. not music
-What are 2 of your favorite foods?
I don't know :O I like chips.. to much. And crisps ;)
-What is on the shirt you're wearing right now?
um.. A random checkered pattern
-Any tattoos or piercings?
none what-so-ever
- What is your ideal job?
Being a primary school teacher
 - your worst subject in school?
At the moment psychology at actual school it was r.e.
-Do you speak any languages besides english?
haha, no.
-What is a smell that you love?
bonfires in the winter.. just reminds me of christmas
-What is the last thing you ate and drank?
orage squash and some shredies
-What is the last movie you saw in the theater?
um... must have been Harry Potter ;)
-Do you have any nicknames?
My boyfriend calls me.. bibbles and nej. That's about it
-Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
that's a scary question, but probably bees because i can run into water
-Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
only when i'm climbing loads of stairs
-Whats your least favorite movie?
I can't remember any films i've seen that have been rubbish, i though eclipse was bad, but that's because i've read the books
-Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
nope, i just buy them every now and again
-Do you believe in ghosts?
not sure... never experianced anything like that, but y'know.
-Can you curl your tongue?
Hell yes :P
-Twilight or Harry Potter?
Harry Potter
-What kind of hairstyle do you have?
scruffy bob type thing?
-What do you do on a Sunday night?
go on piczo ;)
-Have you ever kicked a vending machine?
noooo. Yes, i got told off.
Do you wear your shoes in the house?
No i let my feet run wild
-What's the first thing you do when you get online?
Facebook, piczo, google.
-What noise do you hear right now?
the radio playing some crap
-What's the last thing you purchased?
a drink of coke
-Is there something else you should be doing right now?
I should be doing some homework. But nah
 

I think to much, think of the past, of my past. Until i'm lost in a sea of my own self pity and sorrow. I go over every choice, insult and ordeal i've been through. Surrounding myself in regret where it isn't needed. Even though it won't change the past i've shaped for myself, and even though i can vow to myself to become a better person i know that tomorrow i'll still be the same as i am today. I can sit and try to wash away these doubts, insecurities. But it won't change a thing, because to get rid of these nagging voices in our heads we have to confront ourselves, and that is the scariest thing in life. Looking at yourself properly and seeing maybe...what he said was right, maybe i was wrong, maybe i do need to change.

I don't beleive in Karma because i've seen the sweetest people get dealt the harshest lives. I do however, believe that people who do bad things. Truly bad things. will suffer from the worst disease, from guilt and regret which can alienate us from our friends and family, leaving us alone.. or atleast feeling alone.

ok, so this is what you may class as 'deep' but don't take it to seriously because it's meant to be exaggerated. Also, i'm not naked in that picture i just did some editing to capture the vulnerability so relax :P I hope you liked it, thanks for following! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Today i saw an eight year old wearing knee high, high heel leather boots, giant hoop earings, skinny jeans, and a really low cut top. I don't know about you, but when i was eight i wore shoes that lit up when i walked and baggy jeans and random cartoon tops. Ok, i sound like some old preatching person but still :P

I made a promise to myself that i'd do more/better blogs since i was on the hompage because even though i'm really grateful, but there are SO many people who deserved it more than me.

anyway thanks for reading, love you all xxxx